Pathetic <----hangs head in shame..

Haven't blogged in a while. Bad bad me! Things have been so crazy busy it seems. Finally got a little break this past weekend. No football (yay), no work, or school. We didn't have much $, but we had love. (Sounds like a sad little country song,huh?) It was a nice break although I did still have homework. Boo!

Football season is almost over & the holidays are around the corner. I am now down 100lbs! Crazy I tell you! I tried on some size 10 jeans yesterday and they fit! I might actually wear them in public one day (if that muffin top goes away! boo!) but hey-they fit and they fit properly. No jumping up and down or anything! That is what I call a NSV(non scale victory in case you don't know!)

Halloween is almost here & I think I will do a repeat (but better) of last year's 80's chick! Lace gloves, big hair bow, pearls, leg warmers, oversized sweat shirt maybe. Not sure what my boys will be, but something with a mask. How fun! Not! I need a little. The big boys aren't into the Halloweens of old :( :( they are growing up far too fast. Maybe a trip to the Goodwill is in order.

I am going to do a Turkey day challenge (I am the only member of this challenge btw..lol) but anyone is welcome to join! Christmas pics will be coming up soon and I have to look fabulous!!!! (and I will be purchasing a slimmer tanktop sort of thing, I hate getting pics back and seeing bumps here and there).
Anyway-the challenge is to lose 10lbs by 11/24. So, that's a month from now! Wow!!! I better get on the exercise train and quick! I think that is going to be the key to these last 20-25lbs!

Well, ciao for now! I will try to update once a week on my challenge! I may even do some scale pics : )

Fall is upon us!

Well, kind of anyway. Around these parts, it can be 50 degrees today and 103 tomorrow! Gotta love Oklahoma.

As you can tell, I haven't updated here in a while. Not much exciting going on, actually its down right depressing at times. My car has been being "fixed" for the past 3 weeks. I just "heard" today that the transmission needs to be fixed. So, on top of the previous $1000 I have spent-it may be another $1400 or so. Ugh! It's not like I have places to be or anything between work,grocery shopping,bill paying,football games/practice,etc! I HATE not having transportation, like w/a passion. Its unnerving.

Weight loss-I am down 92lbs right and a little frustrated. I just want to hit that 100. But, I can tell you right now that once I hit 100...there will be another illusive need to get to some other magical number. The bottom line that I want people to know is that once you lose weight, you must come to terms w/other issues in your life. I use to blame EVERYTHING on my weight...not being able to keep up with stuff-must be my weight... I am needing to get to the Dr. to discuss my potential ADD (self) diagnosis & possible solutions. But I need a car to do that...ugh.

Concentrating on eating low carb right now, it's the only way I will ever see -120.

I really need to begin counseling, but again no car + that can get expensive. I am just working on trying to work out more for now. I will see if that helps my moods any.

That is about it for now. Nothin too exciting at all! I wish I had something more positive to add.

The Worst

I'm pretty much the worst blogger of all time...(imagine Napoleon Dynamite saying that lol)

Things have just.not.been. going my way lately. *SIGH*

Car-I want to roll it off a cliff right about now. After a summer full of car issues (and about $1000), I am about 95% sure I am going to have to buy a new one. I really don't wanna. As much as I want a new shiny,pretty car-one with more room that mine would be great-I don't WANNA car payment. DAVE SAYS its stupid. And I believe him. I love that guy although sometimes I feel as though I can't see how to continue w/his plan...It's very frustrating to be a single mom of two who needs to be able to get back and forth to work, school stuff, football stuff, etc. It makes my skin crawl to depend on others for transportation. Grrrrrr.

ADD-Yes, this is actually the name of this blog. Obviously, procrastination is a symptom with I know very,very,very well. I need to seek treatment for this issue. Of course, I keep putting it off...LOL TYPICAL! I have done the surveys and I am 99.99999999% sure I have it! I hate to think of going through life underachieving, so I really need to call my PCP and make an appt. Having a confirmation of this & a treatment plan could make all the difference in the world.

I did paint a few things this weekend. I need to get a new camera though so I can post pics. My phone just doesn't have the best camera on it.. boo. One of these sweet days, I will bite the I-Phone bullet. I want one, but right now a car sounds like more of a priority! :)

Weight loss-I am very close to the 90lb club! If I could stay ON PLAN that would be amazing. I attempted Atkins induction for a couple of days, then dove face 1st into a couple cupcakes....emotional eating is what its called, and my emotions lurve them some carbs. *Double sigh* I need an a** whopping. I have to ask myself, do you really want to make goal?

Sometimes I feel like I am never going to make goal. Then I have to tell myself-you never thought you would make it this far either. Get a grip! I also have a major problem w/feeling like my life hasn't changed AS MUCH as I thought it would. I still have the same job, same bills, same responsibilities, the same insecurities (although some of them have changed since surgery), I'm still not married...I feel somewhat "held back" but I don't know why? It's so frustrating. People need to realize that WLS doesn't change your life. It just changes your pant size-and the rest is up to you. And even your pant size won't change unless you follow the plan.

This entry kinda feels like a Debbie Downer post. But such is life. Sometimes your up & sometimes your down. ;-)

Hump Day!

Good gosh I suck at this blogging thing. Sorry to my 5 followers lol. I have neglected my poor lil blog for a solid 2 weeks :( how can I ever make it up?!
Anyway, so many things to talk about so little time. I will try to break it up into sections.

Vacation-It went great & my son turned 14 :( and had a good birthday (I hope!) until we drove home and got in a wreck in Texas booooo. We went to Sea World-it was great BUT super hot & super duper expensive. I'm now ready to start preparing for Disney :)

Back to school-we are about 85% ready for back to school :( I hate that I am going to have a Freshmen and a 4th grader. Where did the time go!? Why do I no longer have babies!? *sigh* They need haircuts & shoes at this point. Thank God they won't be sitting at home all day watching TV and playing PS3. I just feel like they should be doing something more productive, but the truth is 1. It's summer! 2. It's almost over 3. I'm not home, so how I can I reallly make them do something productive, I sure wasn't productive during my summers (well, I was more than they are-but really didn't have a schedule or things I had to do besides keep the house clean til mom got home) so, let them be lazy for while-it's almost over! :)

Electric bills-SUCK!!!! We have been having triple digit weather. My dear, dear,dear 14 y/o took it upon himself to change the thermostat from AUTO to ON for a week. This cost me almost $200 for ONE week of electricity. YES, he is still alive but he is now broke (yes, this mean mama took his $40)

Weight loss-I am down to 193. I am sick of the 90s but grateful at the same time. A year ago, I wouldn't have imagined I would be under 200. I def feel like the losses have slowed, but I also notice that when I am exercising and keeping my carb intake low-it picks up and then some! Love my sleeve :)

New products- Recently, I have decided I need to branch out and try products to make it easier to reach my protein goal (60). 3 products I have tried:

Oh Yeah! protein shake (Strawberries n Cream)-one word describes this AMAZING!!! And 32 g of protein. Now, it is expensive, but this is one case where you totally get what you pay for :) It tasted like strawberry quick (sp?) Yum yum yum!

Jay Robb protein powder-Now this one I had tried before (years ago, way before surgery during one of my Low carb phases)-it is also quite pricey. It is very high quality protein and more "natural" than some. They use Stevia which is better for us (as in not a man made sugar substitute-more like real sugar). The only thing about Stevia, is it can be a little on the bitter side. I tried the Pina Colada flavor. It was pretty good. It is also pretty high in protein (25g) for a packet. I mixed w/skim milk (which I am on the fence about milk. I like the added protein, but 18 carbs!? for milk and I don't even LIKE milk ewww but it adds 13g protein to the shake). I know some wls patient's are not carbaphobes, but I know me and I know that carbs do not like me pre-wls or post-wls. I wish this were not the case, but it just is. Anyway, I'm getting off the subject here (hence the name of this blog...ADD!). The shakes are definately tolerable, even tastey. I just wish I didn't taste the bitterness of the Stevia... :( I may keep a few packets of these at work for a quick emergency lunch, but not sure that I will invest in a large quantities.

PowerCrunch bars-Yum,yum,yummy!!!! OMG, I could def see these becoming a problem if I buy too many. I don't have one in front of me, to give you #'s...I bought the peanut butter creme & the cookies and cream! WOW! Knock your socks off good. I believe they are 10 carbs, 13-14g of protein (I double checked and this is correct). They really are bomb.com people! They are a little pricey, so I don't think I will be buying large quantities...maybe a couple here and there.

School- Ok, this girl hates math. No, really,really really HATES it. It is so not my cup of tea. My current class is Business Math and TBH I am really hanging on my the skin of my teeth! It's a 5 wk class, and this is week 5. I hope I make it out alive and that I pass *starts praying for mercy*

Apartment life-I'm so sick of my home as it is right now. It desperately needs some assistance by way of decluttering and decorating. I have several items needing paint right now. I bought a cute little side table at a garage sale last week for $2.50 (LOVE) it's going to be awesome. I think he is going to be black and is going to go in my oldest son's room. I have also decided that spending crap loads of $ on furniture is not going to happen in my home-probably ever. Maybe a couch when I buy a home. I would much rather buy quality, real wood, old school furniture on the CHEAP and just make it fabulous on my own. I have been procrastinating in this area b/c I am a perfectionist and I don't want it to look crappy. But, I have to take some chances. So, my goal is to make it to home depot w/my mom this week or weekend to buy all the stuff I need. I have quite a collection of Krylon spray paint & it needs to be put to use! I will be adding pics as I complete projects, but don't expect anything magical :) I am a newbie!

Well, I'm sure I could bore you w/more mundane areas of my life, but I will end this now! I hope between homework,housework,projects, football, back to school,work, etc I can do better! Have a fabulous week.

Monday blah!

Gotta love Mondays....your friendly reminder that your weekend is officially OVER. Boo.

I am getting ready for vacation however, so it's not too bad! I am taking my boys to San Antonio w/my mom & sis. It's my oldest's (14th booo!!!!) birthday. I cannot believe A: I have a teenager B: I will pretty soon have a highschool freshmen C: That kids really do grow up so darn fast :( I need to have a baby stat! LOL But, first I guess I need the man, a wedding, and all that jazz. I am ready to get out of town and have good times w/the family. We are going to Sea World (we have never,ever been!) and I am stoked despite the fact that I will probably melt from the heat!!!! I love nothing more than packing up the family and going far,far away!!! Yipppeeee.

On the weight loss...I have lost a whole 2lbs this month I think. Yeah, I'm not a fan of stalls. This pretty much sucks. I know I have lost a lot of weight and I should be grateful. But surely 82lbs is not all I am going to lose...whine,cry,boohoo.... :( I am grateful for my weight loss, I am grateful that I was able to have surgery. I truly am...but I want to make goal. NOW!!!! I guess I should put the scale away and focus on my eating and nsv's for now. I did exercise over the weekend hoping that might help kick start things again.I still feel like a not as fat-fat girl. I'm still in double digit clothes...I'm barely holding on to onederland. I would love to lose 2lbs this week. Please!?? Pretty please w/sugar on top!? :)

Long time no type

Hello there blogland! It's been a while.

Busy weekend around our household...my baby turned 10 *tear* his birthday party turned out well...it was a pool party & we had lots of fun. His big sister got to come stay w/us for a few days & he was in heaven. She is a sweet girl, almost a woman! Hard to believe I met her when she was 5 years old. Anywho...on his actual birthday we went to see Zookeeper,swam, and cooked steak on the grill per his wishes. It was good times.

Now it's about time to get ready for vacation and my oldest turning 14 *double tear*. He's going to highschool next month *sigh* and it's so depressing. Really guys-it is. I feel like I should still have 5 and 6 year olds :( they really grow so quickly. I can't decide if this baby factory is offically closed. I had my tubes tied w/the last one & I have checked into reversals. It's still an option for another couple years, after that forget it! :) If I don't meet the right man, get married and all that jazz-I guess it's a done deal. I will just have to wait oh say 30 more years until I get grandbabies (I hope!).

I hope everyone is having a good week and a fabulous summer!

Disgusted

Casey Anthony got away w/murder today. Congratulations. I am really sick over this miscarriage of justice. Poor Caylee. God knows the truth, and she will get what is coming to her.

Happy Independece Day! =)

Well, I just wanted to check in before the long holiday weekend! :) I hope everyone has a fun, safe holiday w/lots of family time. I intend on it! Going to the drive in tonight, tomorrow helping a friend move and I am hoping we can finish w/that early enough to do something that evening w/the kids. We are having a cookout w/my mom as well either Sunday or Monday.

I had my 6 mos f/u w/my doctor yesterday. Got some new heartburn meds (Nexium) and I hope it works better than the omephrazole (sp?) b/c that wasn't doing anything. My next appt is in December, and I PLAN on being at goal at that point. About 40lbs to go!

My goal for this month:

-Lose another 8 lbs
-Meet protein requirements
-Make some new recipes
-Make it to the gym AT LEAST 3 days per week.

We will see how it goes.

Coupons, saving money, etc.

Ok, so one thing I haven't brought up here has been couponing. I went to a coupon class last year around September I believe? I was soooo gung ho! I went to the store multiple times per week, bought several papers on Saturday (early bird edition, didn't want to miss out on my coupons)...happily cut up and filed all my coupons, printed my lists and off I went to the store. Fast forward to June 2011. I still love coupons, I still love saving money, I still love my coupon blogs (I try to only visit about 3 of them, because it gets overwhelming trying to keep up w/all of the "deals") BUT isn't there always a but? I have been slacking lately on couponing. With the popularity of shows (Like TLC's Extreme Couponing), the store shelves are being cleaned out before you can say, "did that coupon double?". It has become rather frustrating to me to get allllll my coupons gathered up, lists printed, out the door, etc only to find all the stuff is already gone! Now, granted-my store allows you to get rainchecks-but it's all a hassle. But, I know that I know that I know that I SAVE soooooo much $ when I find the time to do it.

I have also discovered the beauty of Aldi. Now, in my area there are two Aldi's but the one that is most convenient to me is in.....well, the not so good part of town so I try to go early on Saturday. The store is a very simple layout, nice cashiers, and cheap produce! Just don't forget to take your own bag/box to take your items home. Also, if you want a basket, you will need a quarter. You get your quarter back upon returning the basket which I forgot to do last time I went darn it. Last week, I went and spent $30. I came out w/2 cantaloupes, 1 carton of strawberries, whole pineapple,bag of apples, bananas, 2 avacados,1 mango,gallon of milk, 2 peaches,several plums,red grapes (2lbs), nesquick (bc my kids were with me begging of course!), a bag of baby carrots, bacon (did not like this btw, but I tried), I think that is everything. I usually buy produce,milk, and paper plates there. This week, $30 was the most I have ever spent there. Usually it is way under $20 for fresh fruit and veggies! I believe that last time I went, I spend $12 & got a great deal of stuff as well. I love Aldi! Try it some time.
To end this, I am going to try to get back on track w/my couponing. It is crucial to my family budget to save $ where I can. I took FPU a few weeks ago, and I feel like my steam is gone. I need to get back on track w/budgeting, couponing, being frugal period. I will be blogging about this in the next few weeks to come :) I am off to listen to the Casey Anthony trial...I can't stand Baez! UGH.

Progress :)

So, a few things have been accomplished since I last posted!

1. The kids room is clean. He was thrilled when I made him help clean HIS mess! *eye roll*
2. I made it to ONEDERLAND! :) barely, so I better not get to full of myself.
3. I GRILLED all by myself (who needs a man!!!??? lol)
4. I made a 90 on my final math test. Woot!

I am woman, hear me ROAR. :)

I had a pretty good weekend, went to the concert & wore a skimpy dress! :) and it looked pretty good if I do say so myself. Tank looked hot, Ginuwine is okaaaaaay, but not my cup of eye candy tea. I can't wait to plan another grown up outting. Maybe go see Martin in August...

Having a pretty good week so far knock on wood. My goals this week are to get everything together for the birthday party on the 9th, sign up for a consult for mobile fit @ the Y, get my AIR fixed (again) in my car (this heat is NO joke), and keep up w/laundry. <------ or I could just make the boys do it! I like this plan much better. They think they have the summer off to play video games, watch TV,swim and have all sorts of fun!??? I don't think so! It's my God given right to prove them WRONG. LOL. With that said, I am hoping to get some tickets to the early showing of Transformers 3!!!I could possibly get the award for mother of the year if I can score those! Off to check..... Have a good week my 5 followers *waves*

To do list....

Is your "to do list" like mine? By like mine, I mean never ending, always adding to? How do you get it all done? I am so tired of being responsible for it all. I am a single mom of 2 boys. They do what I ask them to do, but this is the 1st summer they are staying home alone. My oldest does a great job of keeping his room clean, but that's about it. I just remember when I was younger taking things upon myself to do around the house. I was like a clone of my mom. Boys are just different.

So, I need to come up w/a plan on how to get them on a chore schedule. I don't think it's fair (waaaaaaa <--that is me whining like a baby) that I work all day and come home to a messy home. On the weekends, I would much rather be swimming or having fun w/them rather than cleaning and doing piles of laundry. So, I am off to search for charts or something to get us on track. They would much rather be playing on the PS3, but they need some structure even though I'm at work. I also need to come up w/a plan for meal ideas they can heat up or make w/out too much fuss mess.

I also need a plan...back to Flylady I go. Never heard of flylady? It's an awesome plan when you, I mean I stick to it.  Here is the link: http://flylady.net/ in case there is anyone who has never heard of it. Once I get started, I will try to log my progress here as well. http://flylady.net/

Things I would rather be doing than working

-Obviously, posting to my blog.
-Cutting/organizing my coupons-then heading to Homeland to shop w/my coupons! :)
-Thrift store hunting for furniture that I have no where to put, no way to get home really, really need.
-Painting furniture that I already have. I have really been putting this off due to my pefectionist ways. I realize that unless I can do something perfect-I don't want to do it. But, what I we all have to realize is that practice makes perfect. You can't always start out w/perfection. I just need to DO it.
-Swimming/laying out gettin my tan on w/my boys.\
-Shopping
-Looking at houses-hope to buy one in the next 7-8 mos.
-Sleeping
-Researching vacation plans...Destination Sea World is underway. Yay! :)

As you can see, once I am in blog mode-I can blog all day! LOL

Father's Day.

Well, I'm already slacking as you can see on this here blog. But, I'm here now :) a few things have happened since I last blogged, and a few things that should be happening haven't happened.

-Fathers Day. Shocked as hell, I saw my DAD on Father's Day. I really couldn't tell you the last time I spend any time w/my dad, let alone on father's day. Actually, I could tell you...it was about 4 years ago when my grandmother died. My dad was not himself. You see, he is a drug addict. I was very angry w/my dad up to this point....but once I saw the sad state of affairs of his life-I was oddly no longer angry. I feel sorry for him, and I wished he could get his life together. I wish we could have a relationship because, I was a daddy's girl. Well guess what!? My dad is clean. He says he has been clean for 2 years. I hope it stays. One thing bothers me though...and that is the fact that one of the 12 steps is making ammends with those you have hurt. I for one, am one of the people he has hurt & he never attempted to make any ammends w/me. So, I just have to accept this situation for what it is. Another sad detail of this saga is this: http://www.mysanantonio.com/news/article/Okla-man-pleads-guilty-to-27-years-of-theft-1369995.php

My dad made headlines. I am not proud. He could spend the rest of his natural life in a federal prison. It doesn't seem to phase him. In a way, I can understand why. What can he do about it now? Absolutely nothing, so why be upset about it I guess? I know that I would be falling to pieces...but, he is not. I don't get it, but I still love my dad. I wish he would change and seek relationships w/us...maybe he will. Maybe he won't. All I know is I am no longer angry, just disappointed. I will pray for him, like my Grandma always told me to.

My car- The a/c broke down on me again :( and I haven't been able to get it fixed yet. Yuck! Luckily, the weather is a little cooler today...I welcomed that for sure :)

Weight loss-this is what really hasn't happened. I swear my body is fighting against being in the 1's. It hates me. My 6 mos postop appointment will be next Wednesday, so I am going to get my butt in gear to be well into the 1's by next week. Low carb or go home is my motto! :)

Hump Day <-----I wonder who 1st thought to call it that!?

Well Hello! *waves to my followers* Thanks for following my little rambling blog here. :)

First, let's take roll of what I did/didn't accomplish last night:

-Booking the pool for my DS9's birthday party-DONE
-At least 2 loads of laundry-Did 1 load of towels
-Clean my bathroom-done, but I still have a couple things to do here
-Try to do 20 min of homework slacked off on this
-Cook dinner/clean kitchen-DONE 
-Research steam mop. I think I am ready to buy one. NOPE
-Attempt to do a workout video NOPE

Added:
Vaccum LR,hallway& dining room. Fuss at my kids because I think they broke my vaccum :(
Watch Teen Mom-they always suck me in
Made sure the couch was still good and comfy LOL

I haven't lost much weight this week (yet)...haven't drank as much water as I should either, so who knows. I am *this close* to ONEDERLAND and I can't wait! :)

I'd like to do some painting this weekend. I have a long list of things I need to paint + I found a place that I want to scope out for some dressers/hutch. I need to paint the stuff I already have for now though:
1. Shelf for the living room.
2. CJ's dresser/bed.
3. Zae's dresser.
4. Round table in my room.
5. Shelf in entry way. It's currently black, but I want it to be red.
Hopefully I can get started this weekend. I keep keeping it off procrastinating. I don't know why I always do that. I feel a million times better once it's done.

Goals for tonight

My house is a hot mess. I will be accomplishing the following tonight:

-Booking the pool for my DS9's birthday party
-At least 2 loads of laundry
-Clean my bathroom
-Try to do 20 min of homework
-Cook dinner/clean kitchen 
-Research steam mop. I think I am ready to buy one.
-Attempt to do a workout video

Pet peeves and such.

Oh, I'm sure I will have lot's of these as this blog progresses. Maybe if I type them out as they bug me, they won't bug me as much! :)

-People that drop parts of a story just to let you know they "know" something but then act like they can't tell you the full story. How about you don't even bring it up!??

-People who refuse to research things on their own. In today's technological age, so much info is available at your fingertips. And by fingertips I don't mean to call ME to ask ME to google/research for YOU. If you are truly interested in _______ you will take the steps necessary to find out about _________. If you can't do that, you don't need/really want/deserve_____________.

-People that refer to their husband as "hubby" all the time. For instance, if I have known your "hubby" just as long as you have...just refer to him has "John" or "Bill" Not, "oh my hubby is calling me!" I know who John or Bill is to you...I don't go around referring to my boyfriend as "significant other" or "Oh, look my boyfriend is calling"!?? It's just annoying and a form of bragging to me. It would be a different story if I don't know your husband. It really makes people look insecure in my opinon.

That is all for now  unless someone else irritates me before the day is over which is very likely.

Well...hello there! =)

I am starting this blog for no reason in particular other than I love, love, love reading other's blogs and I also love getting my thoughts out in writing. It's helped me tremendously and I always feel better after I get it all out. I am 31 years old, I have 2 boys. They are 13 and 9, with birthdays coming up (eek!). On December 29, 2010, I had weight loss surgery (vertical sleeve gastrectomy). I wish I had started blogging at the beginning of that journey, but I did journal it somewhat on another site. I am beyond thrilled w/my decision to have the surgery and to date, I have lost about 78 lbs. I always hear people say they wished they had done it sooner. I believe everything happens when it's suppose to happen, where it's suppose to happen, and how it's suppose to happen. My interests vary and the details of this blog will as well. I will talk about WLS, kids, work, school, relationships, current events, food, shopping, coupons, astrology, exercise (or my lack there of)...whatever strikes my fancy that day. And I love the word fancy. I will try to update this often, because I hate when I get hooked on a good blog and they never update. THAT is not fancy.